CJ got locked out of his house. He's been sitting on my doorstep knocking at my gate for 2 hours before i noticed. Ha.

Likethe King of Town. My life is a joke.

http://www.TimeOfJudgment.com/

I guess I CAN own all of Demon.

I've come to the conclusion that I am by far the sickest, most twisted and vile human being, if not only for my dreams. I've had so many messed up dreams that are weird or just plain wrong and labeled disgusting with by society that I ould not dare share with anyone. Ever. Because the would think me to be the most disgusting person ever. I understand that some or many of you can say, I've had messed up dreams too." But I can garuntee yoou without a doubt that my dreams go beyond them all and even Ken would stop talking to me. Ken, who is about as sick in the head as we come. So all of you who talk to me about how weird your dreams are. Don't bother. Been there. Done that.

GOD HATES ME

Oh shit Ijust realized I havn't bought Unlimited Saga. Someone kill me. Now.

I need a webhost.

Went to the movies with Crystal today, saw Italian Job. Pretty good movie. :D

Went to the movies with Crystal today, saw Italian Job. Pretty good movie. :D

29.78304% - Total Geek

http://www.innergeek.us/geek.html

252235 Level 8 in Curveball. I'm not bored.

The current comic at http://www.machall.com is hilarious.

Hwoarang is soon to follow that example.

omg, lmfgdao

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wtf if you sign up for a random game and someone cancels last minute its a loss on that team FUCK

Addendum: FalcnGuard

Not saying that you don't count, but you didn't really hang out and RP with me in the old days, sure you did a little in the later stages but not a whole lot.

I wish I was good at something.

My favorite thing about Friendster is how no one wants to put testamonials up about me. And if they do they're missing content. Or even deeper meaning.

Okay, yes, my blog has been getting retarded.

Anyway. I slept four about 30 minutes then woke up and switched back and fourth for God knew how long. I said fuck it and started playing Curveball. IT's like Pong except 3-d and you can give the ball spin. Anyway I beat Ken's score, my score is 22580 Ken had 21k or something. So yes. It's now early in the morning and for once Helen and I are exchanging remarks. I use that term because we don't talk, at least not anymore. We never really did but we used to hang out together on AOL chats and I sort of miss it, now she's all... well... different.

I'm not saying I'm unhappy with the way things are now with my relationships with people and stuff online and offline, because I'm fine with it but, now follow me carefully because I think onlny one of my readers will understand:

I miss the old days of AOL so much I want to cry.

Back then friends were fun and peopel to talk to to be happy.

Now Chase and I just talk about his art and what we've one recently. Jan is null and void in my life. My cousin Terri is an elitest novel writing RPer and what the fuck happened to Helen? Now she's an anime con going, cosplaying, RP hating IRC FTP using cynical person.

Don't get me wrong none of this is bad. I've always believed in change and that all personalities are good, no matter what. Different strokes for different folks. I like my things and some people hate them, so I let them. (And you should too, tolerance rocks)

I miss RPing with Chase and talking about video games all excited like. I miss Jan. I miss seeing my cousin role-play instead of expanding her vocabulary. I miss cutesy manic Helen who used to be fun. I miss being loved.

That's it. That's why. Back then, people LOVED me. They used to get excited when I got online. "Oh, there's Nathan! Cool! ::IM::" Now everyone has grown up and has better things to do.

Chase has Kristin, Jan has a life, Terri has Tyler and Helen has her anime clique.

I have always believed that life is nothing but a series of masks that you wear. The polite one near family and guests. The crazy one chilling with friends. The thought mask at school. The online mask is the strongest one of all. No one sees your face or body. No one hears your voice and no one knows where your from. You are words. Strangely enough, even though it is a big mask that hides many things, I feel that it isn't a mask at all, more of a filter, one that shows your true personality.

It saddens me that everyone I miss has put this mask away and I'm left behind.

I cling tightly to the internet and I use it often in hopes of catching these people when they put it back on.

So I'm kind of glad Helen and I have exchanged remarks. I don't know when I'll be able to hold a solid string of them in the future. Or if I'll be able to do so again.

It's funny, I try many times to initiate conversations with these people online and, with Terri, off, but since they're not the same I don't know what to say. I'm stuck in the past and am uncomfortable with the present. How am I supposed to cope?

I guess only time will tell.

This is my goodbye. Goodbye to what I loved and knew. Goodbye RedfieldCh, LovelynV, VLdyDrkHrt and TurkElena0.

PlatnmWpn is still here.

Alone.

I don't know why but this is fucking hilarious

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Got my AP scoresback sometime a go. A 2 on micro econ and a 3 on macro econ.

omg i keep watching the trailer for undeworld over and over and over. it's too cool for me

fuck my war3 record went from awesom to bukkake in one day. stupid bad players

Nathan: the store is gonna have this "video hunting" thing. you put a special thing at the end of your arrow and shoot at a screen, sounds cool.

Steve: that does sound cool. you should make it interesting like if you miss you have to avoid the computer shooting an arrow at YOU. only in the leg or the groin though. only classy shots.

Steve: shot in the head = not funny.... shot in the leg = hilarious limp

motherfucker. i played 3 arranged team games and lost them all. i played 8 4v4 games w/ random peple I win them all. i try to get to level 6 by playing one more. i get disconnected. god damn it.

Who has my McAffee Virusscan?

Everyone hates me recently. Yay.

Ohio. Went to Origins. Huge game convention. For those of you who don't know what it is. It's jsut a bunch of geeks playing games nonstop. Every game you can think of. You name it. It was there. Settlers of Catan (magnified and played onf foam 6x6" hexes). Apples to Apples. Mechwarrior (World Championships). Heroclix. Mage Knight (National Championships, which my 3 roommates played it). Magic, Yu-gi-oh, Pokemon, L5r, etc, etc. RPGs were done to, tabletop and LARP. So like I said, everything.

Also they had an Exhibitors hall where they buy, sell and trade stuff. I bought a Dropship for MW and some music CDs for use in VTM. I also bought a Demon book and got a set of free dice w/ it. And I bought dice for $3 (normally $7). I also got some cards and did a lot of trading.

Night 1: Fly there and sleep.

Day 1: Buy some stuff and play some MW tournies.

Day 2: See some of MW Worlds and bought stuff. Went to dinner w/ one of our friends (who was born and raised there). He took us around town after and stuff.

Day 3: Watched Paul, Cliff and Randy play in Mage Knight Nationals. Unfortunatly Cliff didn't win as well as we hoped, even though he's #2 in the world. Beta tested Mechwarrior Solaris. Got a free $80 for it. Played a demo of .hack//enemy (CCG, so much fun, I plan on buying it).

Day 4: Watched championship playoffs for Mechwarrior and Mage Knight. Took one last stroll around the Exhibitors Hall and bought a game.

Had lots of fun. The entire trip was one long gay joke, everything that could be turned into a gay joke was.

I'm looking foreward to .hack//enemy

http://www.pen.k12.va.us/Div/Winchester/jhhs/math/humor/apr22.html

Came back from Ohio on the 30th, lots to tell. But I'm really tired. Time for sleep.